EVER AFTER


This is the song that keeps me alive day after day. This reminds me of you, and how much I love you now...How much you brighten up my every existence, fulfills my very being up to this moment, honey.


Three years ago, our journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

***
And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we're floating, when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love, and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions, volcanic eruptions
We both still care, so we're still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you, I want to make it right

***

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

You're fire-obsessed. One of those guys who's...
Well... Obsessed with fire. (Isn't that some
sort of psychological issue?) You like burning
things. ROCK ON!!


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WHEW

Now, I can breathe, I can think clearly and I'm rational. It just pisses me off, when I think of how evil men can be, all for the sake of love. For the past weeks, I have been in such emotional circus, and it's really very demeaning, you lose your sense of rationality, diplomacy and clarity. Self-esteem gets challenged, and patience stretched up to who-knows-where boundaries. Some of it bitter, some foul, others enlightening. It's really a joyride.

One cannot take bitterness and barbarism out of this kind of mess. Some go to extreme disrespect and outrage that they destroy things and life. Such actions are really far from civilization, and they require immediate legal actions, e.g. violation of privacy, grave threats, physical injury, moral defamation and destruction of property. Thankfully, I have connections.

Nevertheless, it's all part of the distant past. One must learn from mistakes, and be thankful for them, really, because they have transformed that self into a better human being. It's all a matter of choice, and freewill. If we ourselves let these things to forever haunt and destroy us, it's our choice, we'll be living in doom and hatred. If we just forget about it, and treat it as a memorable and fruitful aspect of our history, then we're left with no bitterness at all, and we continue with our lives. In the first place, it's all been done, and we can do nothing to change it.

We just need to brace that uncertain future with a smile, and with new beginnings.