WHEW

Now, I can breathe, I can think clearly and I'm rational. It just pisses me off, when I think of how evil men can be, all for the sake of love. For the past weeks, I have been in such emotional circus, and it's really very demeaning, you lose your sense of rationality, diplomacy and clarity. Self-esteem gets challenged, and patience stretched up to who-knows-where boundaries. Some of it bitter, some foul, others enlightening. It's really a joyride.

One cannot take bitterness and barbarism out of this kind of mess. Some go to extreme disrespect and outrage that they destroy things and life. Such actions are really far from civilization, and they require immediate legal actions, e.g. violation of privacy, grave threats, physical injury, moral defamation and destruction of property. Thankfully, I have connections.

Nevertheless, it's all part of the distant past. One must learn from mistakes, and be thankful for them, really, because they have transformed that self into a better human being. It's all a matter of choice, and freewill. If we ourselves let these things to forever haunt and destroy us, it's our choice, we'll be living in doom and hatred. If we just forget about it, and treat it as a memorable and fruitful aspect of our history, then we're left with no bitterness at all, and we continue with our lives. In the first place, it's all been done, and we can do nothing to change it.

We just need to brace that uncertain future with a smile, and with new beginnings.