TORTURE and SUNSET

It's almost a week now, and it still feels weird. It's over, at napakahirap. After 2 years of friendship and companionship, ganun na lang. It's like starting from scratch again, you dont even know where to begin or what to do. What's making matters worse is the fact that you are now alone. Nakakamiss din, at nakakapanlumo, if you're going to ponder on every moment of those 2 years. Sayang.

I hate to blame, and I also loathe resentment, pero right now, please give me that right. I know my faults, I just so hope you know yours. When we finally decided to call it quits, you accepted it, as if you dont really care. Masakit yun, ni wala man lang appeal, or objection. But it's a good thing na rin, in a sense, because it appears to be reciprocal. I assume the sentiments are mutual, hence the passiveness. Ang bigat lang talaga.

Right now, I keep myself busy and preoccupied of work, just to let the draining time pass, and to forget what just happened. Pero in those idle times, I cant help but think of those moment we're together. And how things will become now that we've parted. It's really understandable that we still observe our old habits, and all, since everything's still fresh. But everytime we do those so-called old habits, we're reminded of how painful it was, or it is.

Finally, Im going to miss your friends. I know they are mine too, but you first made friendships with them, than I did, and I just knew them because of you.

Thank you, for becoming an integral and memorable part of my life...