MAKES ME WONDER
Maroon 5


I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye

God damn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah [x3]
(Oh no)

GREEN CIRCUS

It's been a month. A joyride that I haven't really gotten the hang of. It's an experience I must say, not extraordinary nonetheless.

During my first weeks, I must admit, I got really overwhelmed by the environment - all that spirituality and community that seemed too good to be true. It was... nice.

Nice, because things started to unravel in the succeeding weeks, that all those things that they say they stand for, do not actuate. People start to shed their skins off, that a sense of corruption gloom before their eyes. A glint of superiority materialize as soon as they lounged in their faculty thrones. And the worse of it all, the unbecoming immaturity and unprofessionalism that a number of members exhibit almost everyday. For instance, two female members immediately glistened with the scent of gossip and yak with outright tactlessness about the simplest of things. While a group of male faculty brush their machismo off, with uncalled for condecend as they remark homosexuals.

Jaded. Blase. Satiated. This is what I have been for days now.

I just feel so disappointed with how this kind of culture thrives within the walls of this supposedly understanding institution. And too ironic it is that they bank on virtues, and yet they have undeserving components inside.

Perhaps, a revolution is necessary. The real one. And I believe it will only materialize when we start to grow up and realize that we must act professionally eventhough we do not feel like it.

Whew.