UNCERTAINTY

For the second time, we arrive at this kind of situation. So awkward, it's difficult to delineate which is which, even the question of how things will be from now on.

I want to write a poem about it, hoping it will gradually explain how I feel about this arrangement, or perhaps create a picture how blurry our, or my future can be, now that its over. But I cant. I wish I could, so I wouldn't have to hide it by being busy, or being cheerful when our favorite program comes on. Or by being pre-occupied with the everyday routine.

I want to cry, but nothing comes out. I want to blame you, but no words fly out of my mouth. I want to feel relieved, but it is so damn difficult. I want to talk things out, but our pride obstructs every way. I want to hurt you, but the remainder keeps me away from the mere thought. I want to give you another chance, but you yourself cant exert any effort to mend what has been broken. I want to leave you, but Im not ready. I want to die but I dont know how. I want to stop writing about this, but it is the only source of my strength.

Im sorry for being so selfish. Im sorry for loving you that much.

VAT


Legislators are coming up with a very brilliant idea for a bill. Out of sheer intellect, they want to increase the tax being added to services, a.k.a. Value Added Tax. From the current 10%, they 're adding another 2% to help and aid, according to them, the government in managing its budget.

Whatever. F*** the government. We're already starving and buried in debt.

Patayin nyo na lang kami.

MY LIST

Happy New Year everybody! Welcome 2005!

Here's my own list of those things that I really love, those that I really loathe and things that I just want to simply count.

2004 Songs that kept me musical...

1. This Love - Maroon 5
2. Yeah - Usher and Li'l Jon
3. Officially Missing You - Tamia
4. Love on the Run - Chicane
5. Satisfaction - that song from "Bridal Shower"
6. Noypi - Bamboo
7. I I ain't got you - Alicia Keys
8. If the Feeling is Gone - Kyla
9. Balisong - Rivermaya
10. Wag na Wag mong Sasabihin -Kitchie Nadal

2004 Best Movies that inspired me in their own little ways..and movies I still wait to come..

1. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King
2. City Of God
3. Hotel Rwanda
4. Ocean's Twelve
5. 2046
6. Kill Bill Vol.2
7. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
8. Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason
9. The Phantom of the Opera
10. The Incredibles

Runner-ups: A Very Long Engagement, Spongebob Squarepants, Alexander, Crying Ladies, Closer, Farenheit 9/11

2004 Most Hated People/Fact

1. George W. Bush/Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo
2. Filipinos claiming that "God spared the Philippines from the recent tsunami catastrophe." (For goodness' sake, take a look at our geographical location, morons. Be grateful we're not in South Asia.)
3. Novelty Songs - (Although the rise of these songs is inevitable and they really reflect the status quo, it just gets so annoying everytime you hear them.)
4. 'Jon' from Amazing Race 6 (Victoria's husband, I think)
5. Erap taking advantage of every situation, including FPJ's funeral as a venue for his political angst.

2004 Most Memorable News

1. Asian Tsunami (death toll reaches 155,000 as of this day)
2. Quezon tragedy - I demand all illegal loggers to be put to death!!!
3. FPJ's death
4. Athens Olympics
5. 2004 Philippine Presidential Elections- a testament of Philippine politics' hopelessness..
6. Bush's victory over Kerry - Goodluck to the world.
7. Pacquiao - Need to say more? He has been elevating our country in the international arena.
8. Angelo dela Cruz - because of him, many Filipinos took interest in World News.
9. "Friends" Farewell -such a tear-jerker...

2004 TV Programs that transformed me into a Couch Potato

1. Will and Grace
2. Amazing Race
3. Mulawin
4. Queer Eye For a Straight Guy
5. SpongeBob Squarepants
6. The 4400
7. Extra Challenge/ National Geographic
8. Sex and the City
9. Endless Love: Winter Sonata
10. 24 Oras/ CNN/ BBC