I just feel toxic. Same old shit. I need to relax. My muse, where art thou?

THE DAY YOU SAID GOODNIGHT
Hale

Take me as you are
Push me off the road
The sadness I need this time to be with you
I’m freezing in the sun
I’m burning in the rain
The silence I’m screaming
Calling out your name

And I do
Reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye

To be is all I got to be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight

The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why
I never would have known
Oblivion is falling down

If you could only know me
Like your prayers at night
then everything between you and me will be alright

She’s already taken
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
The day you said goodnight...

This song has been my anthem for more than a month now. Every morning, as I go to work, this song fills my consciousness. So beautifully written, it can pass as a foreign song, by a foreign band. Hope they last, they create awesome music. Just don't get over-commercialized, and jologs. And another tip, dont get stereotyped.

Im back to teaching now. At last, I can now redeem myself from being such a slacker and a person- with- no- defined-future. Haha, goodluck. I actually applaud myself now, for being in ORDER. But of course, one cannot just expect me to change overnight. I endured months of tedious training just to be back. Thankfully, it's slowly paying off. So far, Im getting pretty along with almost everybody. I wear mask everytime they pray, when they ask me, "Are you a Catholic? How come you're not doing the sign of the cross?" I immediately reply, "Christian". Naks.

As long as they dont pry with my private life, thats fine. The moment they question my privacy and individual rights like, right to belief or right to think on my own, Im out. It's very difficult though, teaching in a very exclusive Catholic high school, with all eyes staring at whatever you do, Im starting to think I've entered a convent or a Rehab. Im glad the students are very cooperative, they listen to me, despite the fact that they're very famous for being defiant, or so they say.

The consolation Im seeing now is having a good pay and work. At least, I've reclaimed that much sought after chance. I've learned a lot, I tell you.