DILEMMA

I have been in this state for 2 months now. Countless nights of psychological and emotional turmoil, battling with reason just to come up with a decision.

I hate it. I hate making decisions. I hate confrontations. I despise melodrama. I curse options.

Maybe Im just running away. Maybe Im afraid, i wanna escape. Im afraid to choose between them, because I dont wanna hurt anybody. I wanna escape from the issue, because Im just enjoying my happiness right now, and I dont wanna face reality.

I met her when I started to work in Ortigas. We got along together. From smiles, it branched out to frequent communication through SMS. Then we went out. Things started to bloom from then on. I dont know why and how, I just realized one day, Im totally hooked.

Im just oblivious, perhaps. Or ambivalent. There's one thing I know is for sure, I'm happy with the new one.